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Day One: Gloom

I’m pretty upset.

Today is my first day of making my life better.

And the stupid weather has decided to rain on my parade. Literally.

Stupid.

I did kick off today with some delicious oats though. I love my oats.

[recycled photo because my oats always look the same.]

I don’t know if you’ve checked out my wishlist & goals page lately, but I want three tattoos. Yes three. I already have an eyebrow piercing. Hardcore? Basically. I mean how much more hard core can you get than a blonde girl who loves to wear summer dresses and never leaves the house without makeup on. I’m pretty scary.

I mean really. It doesn’t get more frightening than that.

So why am I talking about this? Because I don’t know exactly when I want those tattoos.

Namaste is going to go on the top of my foot after I graduate yoga school next year. BAM.

The other two? I don’t know.

So today I consulted my “wise mind” about this. I did an exercise where I found my wise mind underneath my sternum, and after calming my body and finding my breath, I started to think about these tattoos. I realized I am not ready for a tattoo yet. I felt my wise mind bunch up and it sent anxiety through me. There was some excitement, but I just felt tense and hesitant. I realized I am not ready for a tattoo. Maybe tomorrow, maybe next month, maybe next year. But right now, I am not ready.

[JSYK: the other two tattoos are my favorite bible verse on my upper thigh & a small quarter-sized ohm symbol on my ankle]

Tomorrow I hope that I can remember to make more oats in a jar. My chocolate almond butter is running low. It would be super sad if I hadn’t already bought another jar. #proactive

Lunch is going to be a smoothie – almond milk because I forgot my almond & coconut milk at Samms house. #iforgeteverything

Today Cassie is coming over so that we can freak out & be weird together. It’s lovely. Guitar hero and super smash Bros are staples. Probably more smoothie too.

fitness*

I walked 3 peaceful miles listening to the Nutrition Diva podcasts. I also did 20min Zumba express.

Now throughout my days I need to try to consult my wise mind before making decisions.

Have a great day bloggies<3

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wiaw & a healthy June

So I know it’s Thursday night and I’m posting about Wednesday. But I am a busy girl and I have lots of stuff that I have been up to (: So you will first see my WIAW, then some fun pictures and updates.

B*fast

I had my first “oats in a jar”. OMNOM

Lunch*

This was one of my best smoothies yet. Such a perfect consistency!

*Dinner

My first burger in 4 months.

Woah.

Truly a wonderful, summery meal!
I snuck in some strawberries on the side as well (;

Dessert*~

I had a lovely baby frozen yogurt cone & about 2 s’mores & 5 roasted marshmallows (so 7 total).

Love flash SO MUCH. #sarcasm

Other*Fun

Notice “102”. Yup. It was HOT yesterday.

Photo taken by moi ❤

More tubing!

Mr. Darcy was hoping for some dropped food!

Today’s fruit salad for dinner!

Raspberries, strawberries, grapes, spinach, and raspberry vinaigrette dressing!

Whew! Lots of photos. Now for a small ramble (;

Yesterday I went to therapy. [Hi Teresa!]  We discussed how I can change over the next month to conquer all the things I’ve been having problems with, like my anxiety and guilt and everything! So tomorrow I am starting a 30 day challenge for myself. Every day I want to make progress towards some daily goals. I am going to try to take things day by day, and try to learn that I can’t worry about things that I have no control of. But I have to try to change what I do have control of. What better place to chronicle this journey than right here on my blog? I might make some posts private, so if I skip a day, that’s probably why. (Not all my issues should be public!)

It’s a journey towards health and happiness. I always set unreachable goals. To be happy. To be healthy. These aren’t tangible things, they are works in progress. They are processes. It’s something to work at every single day. Something I read about recently on http://www.runningoffthereeses.com/ was how we shouldn’t say “I’m perfect the way I am!” because we are always a work in progress. We should be critical of ourselves!

WHAT?!

Yes! We should be critical. Not to the point where it’s damaging, but so that we know where we can improve. The purpose is to find out how we can improve our lives and ourselves. I have never thought about life in that way! It’s called being a realist. (http://www.runningoffthereeses.com/2011/06/im-realist.html)

So I am going to have to really buckle down to chronicle this. I am going try to find the positives in my day. I am going to try to do my therapy exercises. Meditation. Radical Acceptance. Cognitive Restructuring.

It’s going to be difficult, but I know it will be worth it. I didn’t succeed with my May goals, but June will be different. I am ready to take action. I hope to have nothing but good news and happiness to share with you. There will be some intense bumps along the way, so I hope you don’t mind seeing that. I don’t want to be a negative nancy, but I can’t always slap on a smile. It’s not me. I am not 100% happy all the time, and I feel like that is how I’ve come off on my blog. Not to say I’m going to bombard you with cloudy days, but I am going to try to be 100% real with you guys. I love your comments. They make my day. I love hearing about you guys and how you relate.

Thanks for being there with me, and I hope we can take this new journey together!

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